I need to get better. If I want to be happy, sitting around all day contemplating whether or not to kill myself and thinking about all the shitty things people have done to me isn’t going to fix anything. I need to at least try and be happy even if it seems like everyone else is focused on other people and they don’t have time for me. Getting drunk and getting high aren’t going to help either. I just need to get better by surrounding myself with positivity and maybe going and meeting new people. I guess that would be nice.